Guilty!
Soon ill be leaving UK for summer break, a lot of things crosses my mind but i try really hard to ignore them. Some are really disturbing, such as ‘ have i changed tht much?’ Besides the fact that i have picked a lot of english bad habits like reading too much, or listen to only the best classical songs yet memorise the cheesiest pop song by heart..i think im still what I am.This morning when I looked at the collection of books tht i have read all this time…i realised that things are not as how it was before..Greek tradition of democracy?Renaissance humanism? and Englightenment’s questioning of everything have become my daily digest!…what the fuck!…where are my Jane Austen’s? and Dicken’s?..maybe as u grow older everything started to make sense, what u have read turned up to be a reality, what u thought is just a theory is in fact is a set of values!…maybe this the time to put all the effort of grabbing every knowledge from the books into a practical mean?..but where should I start?..maybe when i grow a litle bit older?ahahahah…maybe i should start writing myself…enough with reading! no..i cant say that..i will die if i stop now..knowledge is like drugs..worst than cocaine..it leads u to a place that the writer is in control…u become the victim…the weakest creature…but u long for it everyday…every page..every line…damn!..thnk god my legal text books are boring or else ill be lost forever…ahahahah..love all of u..n i want ‘The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho’ for my birthday ok?…or a mini ipod..hahaha..
