overprotected!
I had a talk with a good friend just now…she has made me realise how I try to protect myself from my own happiness, how I stand on my own path to happiness. What am I scared of? What is it, that has stop me from being a part of this cycle where people fall in love at the price of getting hurt at the end of the day?..That is life..You will never see the light unless you are in the dark, and light is darkness deepest fear. Like darkness, I lured myself out and taught myself that brightness is only temporary and it will blind you if u stay too long in it.
I was wrong. It is lonely up here by yourself…you need it, you want, you long for it!. I have denied myself my own happiness and I shall fix it myself. I didn’t realise I care, I do care, I …
I waited for the call, I longed for the sms, I want to hear that voice through my phone, I listened to the voice message again and again, how stupid have I become, not knowing and pretending as if I don’t care. I want to get hurt again, all the happiness in me now is worth the pain that’s waiting for me at the end of day. I don’t care…I care too much about myself…until I realised that I have learned to stop loving anyone else except myself…Im sorry…I love u..I do..i have been stupid, I thought I know what Im doing, I thought nobody will see it in this pitch dark space of my life. I want more, I want you..yes I do..I love u..call me and tell me u love me too..
Song-Woman like a man(Damien Rice)
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