Azrul’s Blog

     In couple of hours..Ill be 21…savouring the few last moment being a 20 yr old is very very disturbing, i dont really know what to write…i fucked my paper today and im left with so little money.Exam and money?..is tht all i can think off now?..hahahha damn it!..I have people that sincerely think im hot and cool!…I have someone tht  in love with me..I have friends tht will lend a shoulder  for me to cry on or to laugh at..hahaha..plus being 21 mean anywhere on earth you are fairly treated as an adult!..anyway guys!..Im sorry for all those minors out there…hahaahahha..dont worry you will get there too! in couple of years!..hahaha..back to myself ( i know this sound vain and elements of narcisim are present but I do love myself!) soon Ill be 21 in less then 2 hours…a second year law student..a lover..a highly sociable person with a group of cool people intensively sorrounding me..not bad huh!..plus my parents do look up upon me these days..I LOVE ALL OF YOU FOR MAKING IT POSSIBLE FOR ME TO BE A HEALTY , HAPPY YOUNG MAN..THANKS  GUYS!

Mood-happy birth day to me!..happy..happy…happy
Song-Learn to fly(i think its Foo Fighters?)

 When was the last time i wrote something?….last year?..maybe..hahahaha..only 2 words to explain how i feel..’sorry’ and ‘fucking exam’ (the word fuck doesn count as its an action that i didnt do during exam)…hahahah..anyway first paper done! 2 more to go..help!

i want to go to Paris! and home now! tired…tired..too much reading to be done..too little time..feel like im dying of cancer or something!..hahaha..this afternoon  my friend came to my room n we had alittle chat…then he said ‘ i think u need to rearrage your room mate,  its fucking messy’..there it is!…the line tht u have been waiting for someone to tell u then u are neglecting yourself too much for your exam!
     All my life a can proudly claim myself to be a very very neat guy untill today…it came to me ..sometimes u take thigs for granted untill someone said it right on your face,fuck!..i wonder what else people might say tmrw?..u forgot to shave?..u need a hair cut? u need to wear blue today?…what the fuck!..i decide wht i want,i decide whther my room is messy or tidy…ok?
    Back to reality…my life is quite a mess now with exams and Im finishing my Spring semester…so many things to do..so little time…but my litle pervert in cyberjaye has helped me to went through all these smoothly..see good things is there,u just need to see it..thnks..and i love u babe!



Mood-tensed

Song-St Patrick day(John Mayer)

lazy sunday morning…ive been listening to this song all morning, to those non malay speakers, Im so sorry…do mail me if u need to know wht this song is all about(im not really sure myself wht this song is all about but ill try my best ok?)..

Bila Rumi Menari by M.nasir

Kita menari bukan sebarang tarian,Asalnya dari tanah orang orang pilihan,
Bila terdengar masnawi ciptaan maulan,ku bunuh nafsu lebur rantainya dari badan,
Hingga hilang bangga diri,berani hidup berani mati,
Bagai musafir bertemu janji,ini darwis sudah gila berahi
Kita taak rindu pada siasah dunia,perangkapnya membuat manusia hampa,
Untuk bertemu impian bukan percuma,mengorbankan yang tersangat kita cinta,
bagai yunus dimakan paus,Ibrahim tak makan api,
bertemu kasih di malam kudus,luka di badan tak terasa lagi,
pukulah rebana jantungku bersyairlah maulana,
aku mabuk hakiki mendengar suaramu,

and so on…
 Being a malay guy in a (so-called) sophisticated english society i feel hopeless trying to figure out wht tht song is telling me! after 2 years of doing english lit i cant do things tht my people have been doing for hundred and hundred of years-language is not just mere words but a form of cultural view on wht u see around u..symbolism to the most extreme and beautifully crafted words that will never hurt the person you are talking to…this will be my summer project!…any help?

Mood-miss home and someone
Song- Its my life(Bon jovi)

      Exam is just around the corner…life was bad yesterday…but today things just seems to be right in place…nature do take it route as planned…hmm…i just cant stop thinking how bad i gonna do for my exam,,,maybe its good to scare myself…but i have done completely nothing compare to those people i saw in the law library!…help!..terribly missing someone in malaysia…but its ok…things r going very well now…well God..do spare my soul from all the evil tht gonna tear this apart again…i beg u….i like how things are now..nothing excessive..just enough..im not longing for more..just i want things to stay how it is now…feeling saturated now..losing my interesnt on alot of things except….





Mood-need more space in my brain! but enough space in my heart,,is this a kind of mood? fuck its my blog? so?…hahahaha

Song-She(Ken Wood)

    Finally I can sit properly and throw something here…it has been days since i last wrote something…crazy weekend..sorry..now..let the pictures do the talkingok?



Friday nite…big massive party!

 

           How come u can take pic with the DJ!..hahah….. Joana and Sonia, looking hot!

Saturday afternoon….Fiona’s birthday picnic…it was soo cooool!..but too much alcohol..which was even cooler!…hahaahah



cool people at work!                                           Guess which one is the birthday girl?..haha





Behold!..the new sun God and Goddess!             Waiting for my birthday in 3 weeks..huh!




Saturday nite…watching ‘creation’ by Hadyn, classical beauty!

  Sara..camera is tht way!..                              Angel gabriel singing…

Sunday afternoon…A walk to remember..into the spring english countryside..

i wish thts you and me…                                                     Broadway in peak district!..haha

Heaven!…among the wild flowers..                                   Sonia, do all french have fat ass?

Beautiful…both of them…                                   Waltz of the flowers..

 Not a bad weekend though…although i do miss my little angel in cyberjaya..so much…babe, Paris was beautiful last nite..



Song-Aint no mountain high enough
Mood-detox

Its 9.30 am and i jumped out of bed with the urge to write this…fuck!..where’s my glasses?…hahah here  it is…gosh! this part of the song has been playing again and again inside my head!..help! hahahahahha

There goes my baby
She knows how to rock ‘n’ roll
She drives me crazy
She gives me hot and cold fever
Then she leaves me in a cool cool sweat

I gotta be cool, relax, get hip
And get on my track’s
Take a back seat, hitch-hike
And take a long ride on my motorbike
Until I’m ready
Crazy little thing called love

This thing called love I just can’t handle it
This thing called love I must get round to it
I ain’t ready
Ooh ooh ooh ooh

..this gonna distract me all day..all this!,hahahaha but who cares!

     Do u believe in reincarnation?….I dont..but sometimes in my dreams i see myself as a deer walking through the dark forest..and tonight I saw another one walking next to me..and the dark forest turn magical. So magical that i refused to be borned as human being again. The other deer has the softest eyes you ever seen…it looks liquid, the silkiest hair thinner than anything i ever set my eyes upon and the most mesmerizing smile that the whole forest stood still when the deer smile. It spoke of beutiful things as i stood still watching every music pouring from its toungue…its not words but music,i can swear!

    As we continue walking through the magical forest..magic is everywhere..orchestrated in every song that the birds sang were our song, every sun ray that landed on its body reflects fine perfection of creation. We continued walking.

    The forest opened it path for us so we can run freely without getting our horn stuck in the envious bushes..we ran..and then we realised that we are lost..I was worried..but the other deer said ‘ Follow now the beetle’s hum, Little wanderer, hie thee home!’ and how right was it!…we walked home safely..The other deer stood there and ran towards the magical forest leaving me alone again…come back!..or my forest will turn dark again…



Song-Slow Jam(Usher and Monica)

Mood-in need of something..

  Yupzzz…Im so dead..just finished the last block of black chocolate Sonia bought for me from Paris..pure orgasm..need more!..need more!..Well now reality hits!..Critical financial problem(Ive just grew too proud to ask money from my dad…fuck!..hahah), exam is just around the corner, a good friend said im not a believer(do you hear that God!), love life sucks…and Im no way close to a healthy sex life..Hmm..i know everybody have their own misfortunes..is just that you guys have to listen to mine..hahahaha..anyway..life have to go on…I just have to learn to smile and laugh at my silly mistakes(in which turn up to be a very healthy habit!..no joke..fuck depression!..hahaha)…at least the sky is bluer today and the air smell like fresh cut grass..lovely!..no more bull shit!..just pure multiple orgasm!..hahaha..today will be the day where Im proud to say that I  am for what I am…dead but full with realistic hope and dreams.

Song-Tu es foutu(In Grid)
Mood-A chest full of hopes and dreams

well guys these are some beautiful people i met last night….hope u like it,,,coz i do..hahahahaa
 On my way ladies…

Meet the man of the nite ladies….

League of the extraordinary gentlemen

Masa,where do u get tht suit from?

Sorry girls….hahahah
And another one…hahah

And another one….and..opps…that’s shawn n me

Song-Waltz from Serenade for Strings In C major(Tchaikovsky)
Mood-Im back boys!..yeah!..hahahahaha